Five years ago this month, my sister and I stood awkwardly in the back room of a church, the day of our mother’s wedding. Enough time had passed and the pain had begun to disperse but still, we were tender. We’d hurt each other. We hadn’t really spoken in years. She hadn’t wanted to get into the fire. I needed the fire and dove in with a vengence.
I did her daughter’s hair, the beautiful flower girl. She gushed over my child, crawling on the floor. The healing power of children.
At the reception, she confided….a lump in her breast. Her doctor said not to worry. No family history. Just 36 years old.
“Find another doctor.” I said.
“I’ve already made the appointment.”
We stood watching our mother, watching our children. 9/11 just ten days prior.
A glacier melting.
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“It’s cancer.” she said.
“I’m here for you.” I said.
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“I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you, back then.” She says now.
“I’m sorry I tried to force you to be in a place that you weren’t.” I tell her.
“I love you.”
“I love you too Kelli.”
Happy Birthday, my beautiful sister.
9 comments:
Wow - you two look so much alike from the picture you chose.
So glad to know that healing has begun in your relationship. Happy Birthday to your sis!
is she well, now?
Yes, thank you. Kelli is doing great.
She's awesome!
awesome, the power of forgiveness and love.
awesome, the power of forgiveness and love.
So beautiful, your sister, you, the writing and the message.
I laughed, I cried, I love you, my sister, my friend, my confidante, and my support system.
So glad we have each other!!!
Your writing is awesome. I am so proud of you.
Kelli
i'm so glad to hear she is doing well now. it sounds like you are lucky to have each other.
That wedding was 5 years ago today.
The blogging tissues are out again today.
I am blessed by my daughters
Love
Mom
9/21/06
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