My feelings got hurt today. I requested a favor, and when I did, someone said something I allowed to instantly shoot me back in time to a place where any need I had was too much. All my life I’ve felt like a burden. Unworthy. Here it was again.
After our brief conversation I walked down the hall toward the meeting I was headed to. Like the old days, I dug my fingernails into my palms, distracting myself from emotional pain with physical pain.
But I know this person to be kind and loving.
She has gone out of her way for me in the past.
Perhaps she’s having a bad day.
She’s going to feel like shit about this.
What she said will be her burden to carry.
(I have to admit, that thought made me feel better).
After the meeting, she met up with me and
attempted to explain. She hovered about.
I had already forgiven her.
It was never about me to begin with.