Later, when Riley started showing signs of autism, my financial self-study program got derailed. All my focus (and all our money) went to bio-med therapies. We found out quickly that though we were fully insured, medical insurance companies denied just about everything she needed. We didn't know what the years ahead were going to be like, so we made another important decision to live below our current means. We bought a small house. We drive old cars. We don't shop. Before Alaska, we had not had a real vacation in ten years.
So what's the guilt about? There are many people in my life who are barely getting by financially. People lose jobs, or get an illness and wind up in credit card debt that can seem impossible to climb out of. It almost feels like I'm rubbing our abundance in their face simply by "admitting" to no credit card debt. Of course it's all relative. Wealthy people would laugh at my idea of our current no college fund, no savings, "abundance."
What I do know is you can't attract and repel something at the same time. It is law. If you resent people with money, (and I used to, big time)you can't draw more financial abundance into your life. By the same token, this must be true: You can't attract abundance if you feel guilty about it either. And you can't make yourself poor enough to help anyone else.
We don't normally keep a credit card balance. I am proud of this fact. We are doing well, and we are going to be doing better and better financially.
And if you don't like them apples, you'll never have enough to make your own pie.