Once upon a time, when I was 16, I gorged on chocolate ice cream and then tried to make myself throw up behind a shed attached to the back of our garage. It didn't take. No matter how I tried, my fingers would not stay down my throat. I could not throw up.
Since I couldn't seem to stop eating compulsively, the next time it happened, I took a few swigs of ipecac syrup and thought I would die from the vomiting it induced.~
TFBS for a 16 year old girl to hate herself so much. I wasn't a bad kid. I'd never been a bit of trouble. What was to hate?~
A new anthology titled Feed Me! is out. In it, writers "dish about food, eating, weight, and body image." I've read several essays from the book and it stirs up a range of emotions in me. Writer Lisa Romeo has a piece in Feed Me! about the time she was featured in a maj*O*r national magazine. The article spoke of coming to terms with yo-yo dieting and emotional eating and her essay made me angry at it's depiction of how overweight people are invisible in our society.~
Caroline Leavitt's piece about an ex-boyfriend who preferred her to be rail thin and monitored what she ate had me fuming. Been there, done that, with more than one guy.
As much as I'd love to go back and blame the boyfriends, none were ever as harsh as the terrorist inside my own head.~
Putting a ban on our own negative self talk is the first step toward helping our daughters avoid the same traps.~
*Harriet Brown is editor of Feed Me! She blogs about food, eating, body image, and weight, at http://harrietbrown.blogspot.com/.